I believe that not every relationship is supposed to last forever. I believe that people come into your life for reasons, seasons, moments; but that doesn't necessarily make it any easier to get over when they leave you. I used to be the kind of person that 'blew up' good things in my life - I would purposely find ways to destroy relationships, hurt myself and just overall bring drama into my life and make it unbearable. What it really came down to is I never felt worthy of certain kinds of love, that and why wait for them to hurt you when you can do it yourself. This is no way to live.
I had a hard conversation yesterday with a friend and our relationship ended - maybe to make room for something else or maybe there was just a lesson to be learned. Maybe old habits die hard and as much as I think I've grown I still have a long way to go. I know that because of this friendship I am a better person, they brought out some truth in me at a time I was scared to face it myself and encouraged me to look deeper into my practice and my actions.
Relationships, people, things - they come and go but it's their residue of what it taught you that stays forever. Perhaps that's why we clean house every so often, it's our way of checking ourselves and staying on our toes. We need reminders to be cautious of our actions and know that we are constantly changing and when we outgrow one thing it's time to move on to a bigger task. When one lesson is received it's time to for the next.
I can't say I'm sad at this outcome, things in my life are shifting and this was just one of them. I appreciate the honesty that this friend provided and I will take the lessons learned here and apply them in the future.